1940s

1940s to mid 1950s. Currently very curious and interesed in this time frame. Now I am not the kind of person that knows too much about this time frame, only thing that I know about it is that back in those days there was some kind of war, NASA wasn’t even formed yet (NACA was instead) and sputnik hadn’t even been launched yet and the first “all purpose” computer was realised in 1946 (ENIAC). All that being said, the limit in technology back in those days would be like a horror movie for me. Oh and Italian gangsters come to mind, like Al Capone but I don’t know when he was around.

But that’s not what is interesting me, no it’s the lifestyle. Now seeing I was no where near alive, hell my parents were probably not even around back then, my knowledge on this time frame is mainly based on movies and various searches on the internet. But what I think is this: life seemed to be a lot more simpler back then. Now I could be completely wrong, but that’s just my interpretation. I have been thinking about writing a blog about this for a while, but I am not 100% sure how to put my thoughts into words. The world seemed more innocent then, life was different.

The one thing that gets me the most though, is the women were so different back then! Don’t get me wrong, show me some slutty chick wearing next to nothing and you have my undivided attention; I’d probably do backflips just to get into bed with her. But that’s not the kind of girl you want to have a relationship with! But back then it seems like women were more refined, you met a nice girl got married and started your life together. If there was a problem with your marriage you tried to fix it not get a divorce.

I don’t know, there is just something nice about the thought of going to work everyday then coming home to your wife waiting for you with dinner on the table, asking you how your day was. I know this can happen in our world today, but something about the attitudes and ideology back then are different. Something you can’t find today.

Like I mentioned before, I am not really sure how to put this all into words. Maybe I’m thinking like this because of my new found views on what I might want or what appeals to me currently in life. I don’t know. Just something that’s been on my mind lately.

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Decisions.

Sometimes it’s hard to decide what to do, or what direction to take life in. And at the current moment I am absolutely confused on what direction to take. On one hand, I continue my studies, (which can take 6-8 years to finish) or I can get a job. One of the jobs I applied for tonight (which hopefully I will get, at least I think I have a good chance of getting it) pays $120,000.00 a year. Right now I don’t know what to do, and I’m doubting every option I have. Be it working or studying. If I take this job, it means I walk away from studying and eventually establishing a career in something I am passionate about. But if I turn down this job, I am missing out on $120k a year, I can’t just walk away from that kind of money.

Never thought I’d…

Lately I have been thinking quite a lot. Isn’t it funny how things seem to fall together in life? Some of the things we are or were either so against, or thought we’d never want, can turn out to be some of the things we need or want most in our life. And even thought all along people have tried to show us this, we can’t come across this realisation until we for ourselves, on our own discover this need or want.

And my head is spinning. Just thinking about all of this. I think at one point, we have to distinguish between a dream, and what is actually attainable. Now I know that people always say the sky is the limit, but I think sometimes we have to be a little realistic with what can actually happen.

So here it is, my confession. I want that dreary desk job, in fact I think I am looking forward to it (not like that feeling will last). Nothing wrong with stability, and I want 100% financial stability. Buying my own house, and being in a committed relationship. As terrifying as commitment is, I think deep down, everyone needs somebody to love.

I think I am ready to grow up, it’s a scary thought… But I think I’m almost there, now I just need time on my side.

🙂